About

I’m Wendy Blackheart. Some of you already know me from my sex blog, Heart Full of Black.

I’m you basic run of the mill twenty something living in NYC, trying to get by.  I’m going back to school to finish my B.A. I’m looking for a new job. I’m active in the BDSM and sex positive communities. I like to read, write, and sew. I like meandering around Manhattan.

I’m also clinically obese. I’m 5′4”, 260lbs, and I have a BMI of 44.1.

I have tried hundreds of times and ways to lose weight. I have worked out, dieted, tried diet pills, weird exercises, Curves, Richard Simmons, Weight Watchers…I’ve tried it all. Truly, and with all my will. In fact, for the past two months I have kept a blog with my best friend to document out eating patterns and exercise. She has lost 20 pounds. I gained 4.

However I have managed at this point to maintain at 260. While maintaining is a good thing, I’m still about 100lbs overweight. I’m beginning to physically feel the strain. My knees and hips hurt. I find myself out of breath going up more than one flight of stairs. I don’t move as fast as I used to, or would like to. I’m tired all the time. Exercise is difficult.

I’m also scared. I’m worried about developing diabetes. I’m worried about my heart and my joints and my lungs. I want to be healthy.

So, I started looking into surgery. Specifically, the Lap Band.

Tomorrow (9/25) I’m going to a seminar at a local hospital, and I’ll be seeing what I have to do to get it done. I qualify with my insurance so far, but there are tons of other things I have to do, but I’ll be doing what I can.

So, hopefully there will be a little bit less of me.